nobody is ever perfect until they dont want u anymore

suddenly ur lies were like ice cold water n i was so so thirsty walking the hot vegas strip 108 degrees  my feet were bleeding in those heels
i started my period in a pawn shop and just when it couldnt get any worse

i spent months in cold cells long nights in strangers garages and endless days walking the world we created together alone
winter is probably my least favorite season and last winter was the worst yet
waiting for u to come save me wishing u would pick up the phone
but it was a burner phone n i was ur burner life
duh

well to be honest it was already bad when i would spend days locked up in the rooms we paid for i couldnt even get out of bed to smoke and when i did it was already 4 pm n i was waking up with my makeup from the last day still on
wake up take a one hour bath smoke a cigarette smoke some weed some some sherm smoke some dope snort some pills snort some powder and i would wait
i would wait for u to come home

but it was not home n i got so so tired of waiting
i did it anyways
cuz love is mostly reciprocation without the desire to do whatever it is u r reciprocating
or so i thought but what do i know
u couldnt even wait a couple months for me
n i spent all of our time together waiting for u